generalflirt | ~♥TWENTY-NINE♥~

[Masaomi has been dreadfully ill since, well... since about Nagisa's party and going to look for a starfish the night before. Since then, well... he passed out there, barely made it home, and had been nursed ever since. He was slightly delirious though all this, and he relied on Saki to get him through things while working on autopilot. He wasn't able to really move much himself until about the 29th or so. After that you might have seen him going in and out of the kitchen. But had he not seen Saki as much somehow...?

This pattern lasts until he wakes up about three PM on the 3rd. He's finally feeling better, and is able to pick up the journal, flip through things, and then go check on Saki and... she's not there. He searches the apartment, is it just him or is it more empty. Finally, he goes to make a filtered message to her to see if she's around...

And. She's not. The filter breaks.

She's gone.

Gone.

He got back his cell phone a while ago - he hasn't opened it, really, but after Fray gave it back to him the only thing he used it for was that thing with the texts and "Tanaka Taro." But. He flips it open to see Saki's picture in there. His grip tightens. They never even talked and she's gone.. completely gone. He begins to shake. The rage lasts a while and he tries to calm down enough to make a little post saying she's gone. and finally... two hours later, he thinks he is]

[Voice]

Everyone. Ah, I - I... [...No, he can't do it. He can't be calm]

Son of bitch! No! [And then he throws the cell phone clean across the room. It hits the wall with a loud sound - it's not broke, not quite, but the battery pops out of the back and the screen cracks. But who cares. Now, now? His voice is pained beyond anything people have heard in Luceti since about when Mikado was sent home, but this pain is different - Mikado's was cold fury, this one is erratic fury and sorrow and... well yeah]

Why now?! [Voice break] Why- dammit, [He grits his teeth] Dammit!

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...It depends, doesn't it? It's different for everyone.

Edited 2012-01-04 20:44 (UTC)

No. Everyone goes home the same. No warning, or anything.

But not everyone goes home to the same thing, leaves for good, or has the same experiences here.

But no one asks for it.

...Personally, I think it's pretty unfair that we get brought here and messed around with to begin with. To go home at random or to go back and forth is just icing on the cake.

But that's just me.

That's true.

...What do you think?

Both are unfair. The lack of control is unfair. So... we have to be ready to deal with an unfair world.

Wise words to live by.

You think so, Silver-kun?

[With a ... not terrible real smile]

Life is hardly ever fair. Striving for the best and being ready for the worst is the most anyone can do. [...Silver's not sure that he buys into it, but... At least he can compose himself, right?...]

You can't be prepared for it before it happens, not really.

If you think that, you gotta get better at rolling with the punches.

[Ass]

It's the reaction which'll count, man.

So it hurts. So you flinched. Turn that flinch into a dodge and keep fighting.

You said it yourself, didn't you? It's not fair. Are you gonna let something unfair hold you back, or are you gonna keep pushing forward?

You don't need to give me speeches, Silver-kun.

It's not a speech. It's a question.

And I'm telling you I don't have a choice, there's nowhere but forward!

Then say it like you mean it. Put emotion into it like you are right now. None of that weird false smiley crap. I don't even need to be face to face to see or hear it.

Silver, you're one to talk.

When it comes to pushing through bullshit? You better believe I am.

You barely emote at all.

I'm no Gold, alright? I save getting worked up for when it counts. [But this isn't the point, and Silver's reaching the point of frustration where he's starting to forget what the point was in the first place. He should just shut up now. There's no point. Why should he care? Masaomi's problems aren't his.]

Ah, ah. That's a little odd, that you would tell me to get worked up then, Silver-kun.

Maybe this is one of the times when it counts. Is that odd enough for you?

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