Appointments Post ( I )

[generalflirt]

This post here is for personal conversations which should happen but one or both of us doesn't want to put up a new post/log and thus we will just thread it out here. This can be used to thread with Masaomi anytime and anywhere. This can either be in person (with action), or via the journal's call feature (voice and/or written).

When replying to this post please mark in the subject line when and how it is taking place EX:
[Action, March 11th]
[Voice, September 8th]
Written, June 10th]</b

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[generalflirt]

Called it. [With a sheepish smile. He doesn't make a move to disentangle them just yet either.]

[markofthebrave]

[In that case, Katara is just going to take shameless advantage of him, and shift even closer so that their bodies are pressed together. She ducks her head and rests her cheek against his chest, smiling softly, simply happy.]

[generalflirt]

his arms shift position slightly, from something less in the department of a kiss to more in the department of holding. He doesn't rock, but he does enjoy the feeling of her resting there, smiling to himself. Right now, he can't help but think, he couldn't be happier.

He's not sure if he whispers it out loud or just sounds it out in his head as he mouths the words silently, but the moment does seem apt to say "I love you."]

[markofthebrave]

[Katara shivers a little when his fingers brush against her wings, even turning to plant a light kiss in the area easiest for her to reach in return, which would be more or less in the area of his collarbone at this point. But then she settles her head back down, listening to his heartbeat.]

I love you too.

1/... let's say 4

[generalflirt]

[And in this moment his heart soars. It's not unusual for her to be like that (to be honest, it's a very Katara-like thing to be so frank with her feelings) and he's not surprised despite feeling an odd nagging he's not heard it before at least in a while but he does feel like the luckiest man in this whole damn barrier. Probably this whole world. He keeps silent, in this little embrace. Comforted. At peace. Safe.

Loved.]

[generalflirt]

[But as the moment - one Perfect moment - passes, a nagging feeling settles into him. Loved? Is it right for him to be loved? Is it okay for him to be loved? After all, his own love might not... be strong enough... what if he fails to protect her? Not that she needs it, but he thinks back to Saki's injuries. Doubts creep in first, and in response to that his arms slowly lower on her, going more towards his sides.]

[generalflirt]

[The doubts fester more. Wait, was it natural? Had he ever heard that before?

Did she love him?

Alarmed a moment, he finds he can't answer that. The euphoria does not fade all at once. It's a slow creeping feeling. It's less like being emptied and more like filled with every other complication imaginable. It's not okay. It's barely even alright, isn't it?

She didn't love him.

So by then his arms on at his sides, and he takes a step back, his expression oddly serious. Spiders are crawling all over his heart]

4/4

[generalflirt]

[The final thought hits him like all those spiders injecting their venom.

Do I love her? Do I care about her enough to say I love her? Is my love strong enough?

Despite the heat, a terrible pain wells up in his chest. No. No no no no no. His eyes go wide and he sumbles one step away from her. Then a second. Then a third- She doesn't love me - he turns. No. No no.

Do I love her?

He can't answer that. He can't- He can't-

His turn done. He runs. He runs from her. He runs away from this moment, and he wills himself to outrun that pain in his chest]

1/?

[markofthebrave]

[Something's wrong. She can feel him starting to tense, and she moves her head to look up at him.

And then his hands slide off of her.

Something's wrong.]

Masaomi?

[markofthebrave]

[And then he's moving away from her - he's moving away and looking at her like she's a stranger and Katara feels cold dread sliding down her back like wet mud and coiling in her stomach.]

done!

[markofthebrave]

[He's turning away?]

What--

[Her lips form the word soundlessly, and then he turns to run, and he's taking her heart with her and -

No. No, no, no.]

Masaomi!

[And she starts to run after him.

What is it? What's wrong? What happened? Did I do something wrong?

Don't you run away from me.]

1/2

[generalflirt]

[She doesn't love me

She doesn't love me

That's a lie, her running is a lie

Her chasing me is a lie

It's all a lie

It's a lie, so stop feeling like you're going to break

After he shout he briefly, briefly stops. He almost turns to look back

Stop hurting. It's not real.]

2/2

[generalflirt]

[It's a lie

I don't love her (enough?) (now?) (yet?)

It's not reciprocated.

His eyes are streaming tears openly, he realizes in his brief pause. No. No. No more hesitation. He starts to run, sprint again. Towards the far end of the beach, towards the teleporter. Away

Don't you look at me like that. You don't love me.

I've done nothing wrong.

Stop hurting]

1/?

[markofthebrave]

[He stops and she runs faster. If she can just get to him, if she can just reach, she knows that they can work it out.

Don't go. Don't run away. Don't just leave.]

[markofthebrave]

[And then he turns and keeps going and she stops because--

Oh.

Oh.

The mostly-eaten fruit, still clutched uselessly in one hand, drops on to the sand. She stares at the back of her friend who's running from her and remembers--

Luffy.]

[markofthebrave]

[Katara very nearly doubles over in physical response to the sudden squeezing of her heart. The weight of guilt and betrayal against her boyfriend and - oh, I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

She has to wrap one arm around her stomach and she lets out a small sound of pain.]

done

[markofthebrave]

[She drops to her knees in the sand, shuddering for breath.

Luffy will understand, she'll tell him and - he'll understand, she knows he will. He'll have to. If she lost him because of this...

...but it will hurt him, she'll have hurt him, all because of this stupid fruit.

Damn them.

And Masaomi... why had he run? It ran out for him first, but... now he couldn't even look at her?

She felt small, and cracked open, dirty, and entirely alone.]